If you were to die right now would you be ok with it. Is everything you are supposed to do in this life up to date? When they talk about your life flashing before you what do you see? For me it’s are my kids ok are they safe number 1 next my sisters are they safe have I given them enough insight on my life for them to get through the things I have been through? #3 do my kids know how much I love them. Do they know how important I think they are to the world? I want my kids in my life for me that is a selfish thing but I need to know they are safe I need to know they are taken care of I need to know they have a voice and are being heard I don’t fight very hard for what I want but for the things I need I will die for otherwise my life is off balanced and my quality of life sucks. I begin feeling as though it would be better if I were gone because then I would be able to guide my kids and be with them all the time. The parents who take kids from the other parent the families that walk away from drug addicts are actually the problem. You all don’t understand the drugs are to cope with the fact we don’t measure up to your standards you are the abusers. We are hurting no one but ourselves because we don’t care about us and you don’t care about us however we live our lives for you everything we do is so that you guys don’t feel the pain you have put onto us. You will probably read this and think bullshit that’s another excuse and that’s exactly what I’m talking about instead of compassion and understanding you judge and you all are the ones raising our kids dcs takes kids away from the ones who are true and care more about the children then even themselves and give them to the parents who pretend the narcissist the one who says what you want to hear to get what they want and to look a certain way no wonder our kids are growing up that way. It’s fucking society
Where I’m from
Realizing that there is nothing left of my past is hard and scary. Have I really become the person no one wants to be around. What happened? Oh I started feeling sorry for myself. I was able to step back and actually say man I been through some shit. I forgave my behavior and stopped punishing myself now where are all the people who told me to love myself no where around. Little did they know I learned how to treat myself by how they treated me and I treated them the way I longed to be treated. When I switched it they all stopped talking to me haha they didn’t get that we got along because we had something in common we all blamed me. I didn’t understand that no I have to learn how to live as a whole new person in a whole new life I never wanted in the first place I was comfortable with who I was I changed for them and they didn’t like it so they walked away wtf lol… well that’s enough bitching at least I learned a valuable lesson no matter how hard you try to be what everyone wants and expects it will never be right because they don’t really want me to change they just wanted me to lie about who I am so I could fit in. Fuck you.
This is my very strong opinion on living free from the chains of society.
On my site you will read about my personal experiences trying to fit into society and how not living up to what’s expected of me as a daughter, a sister, a mother and a wife has cost me everything I have ever known. How the depression from not being enough consumed me and how I got to my breaking point of living free.
Living free 