Realizing that there is nothing left of my past is hard and scary. Have I really become the person no one wants to be around. What happened? Oh I started feeling sorry for myself. I was able to step back and actually say man I been through some shit. I forgave my behavior and stopped punishing myself now where are all the people who told me to love myself no where around. Little did they know I learned how to treat myself by how they treated me and I treated them the way I longed to be treated. When I switched it they all stopped talking to me haha they didn’t get that we got along because we had something in common we all blamed me. I didn’t understand that no I have to learn how to live as a whole new person in a whole new life I never wanted in the first place I was comfortable with who I was I changed for them and they didn’t like it so they walked away wtf lol… well that’s enough bitching at least I learned a valuable lesson no matter how hard you try to be what everyone wants and expects it will never be right because they don’t really want me to change they just wanted me to lie about who I am so I could fit in. Fuck you.