If you were to die right now would you be ok with it. Is everything you are supposed to do in this life up to date? When they talk about your life flashing before you what do you see? For me it’s are my kids ok are they safe number 1 next my sisters are they safe have I given them enough insight on my life for them to get through the things I have been through? #3 do my kids know how much I love them. Do they know how important I think they are to the world? I want my kids in my life for me that is a selfish thing but I need to know they are safe I need to know they are taken care of I need to know they have a voice and are being heard I don’t fight very hard for what I want but for the things I need I will die for otherwise my life is off balanced and my quality of life sucks. I begin feeling as though it would be better if I were gone because then I would be able to guide my kids and be with them all the time. The parents who take kids from the other parent the families that walk away from drug addicts are actually the problem. You all don’t understand the drugs are to cope with the fact we don’t measure up to your standards you are the abusers. We are hurting no one but ourselves because we don’t care about us and you don’t care about us however we live our lives for you everything we do is so that you guys don’t feel the pain you have put onto us. You will probably read this and think bullshit that’s another excuse and that’s exactly what I’m talking about instead of compassion and understanding you judge and you all are the ones raising our kids dcs takes kids away from the ones who are true and care more about the children then even themselves and give them to the parents who pretend the narcissist the one who says what you want to hear to get what they want and to look a certain way no wonder our kids are growing up that way. It’s fucking society